There's something wrong
With how only a single second of
Seeing your familiar face,
Tears My heart from my chest
And lays it upon the dirty table
To be disected
By everyone's eyes
Allowing it to bleed
Unable to stop
Until it's far too late
To be saved

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yeah kay
you don't get it
i had a really big "fuck!" moment yesterday
I didn't expect to see this person, i wasn't ready to see this person
I didn't even want to remember this person
yet, the people who i thought would never ever be with this person accidently and unpurposly and most likely unknowingly showed that person to me and I just crashed; i crashed so fucking hard i didn't know what to do but to go hide in my room until hours later when i found my paint brush and just let it all out
but what can I do now?
I'm pretty sure I'm going to see that person again...it's practically inevitable that that damn person will pop up agian...maybe i should just get over it
but how can one do that to a person who's so fucked up and w/ just a single second of seeing them crashes my whole universe!?

but don't worry : D i'm all good now : ) painting helped me